WHO'S RANTING.
Saturday, April 14, 2007!
RANTED on; 10:12 PM
Another 13 Days to endure before i can see Derek. To make things worse,i have sch till 4pm on fri when he is supposed to book out. Gosh, how sad can that be,hopefully he doesnt book out earlier than 5pm or sth or else i cant make it. One thing i realise, guys just starting NS needs reassurance. Understandable cos they are confined in an island while the girls are out. But i am more than happy to let him know that i m waiting for him=)
Went for orientation yesterday. i hate new places cos it means that i am alone all by myself and to make matters worse,i noe that derek cant really be there for me.Urgh. Super scary once i got there cos there were like super lots of people at the auditorium and its like people are toking among themselves and stuff.Sigh.lonely,the only adjective to describe me at that moment.
After that got into my class.Glad to find out that my class was actually quite noisy (me being one of the noisier ones after i warmed up to some people). My class is like a mini south east asia. i got people from Malaysia,china and even Myanmar. Cool right?
Turned into my depression mode once i got home. Thinking about lots of stuff. About Derek, about my choice of nursing, about my sponsorship,my age gap with most of the poly freshmen (sux totally),rocky relationship with my mum these few days. Urgh.
i wish i wish i was back in secondary school. life doesn't seem so rosy once u grow older.
sorry but i m being very pessimistic these days and whiny too.