today was pesta sukan. we were all late as usual haha. judo comps will nv feel e same again! watching renjun being stubborn abt her arm today (haha no offense renjun) made me realise(once again) how hard people train to be able to play in comps to e extent tt they can forsake their own well-being. even when u were alr injured, u still held in there n finished up e match. in some weird sense, i feel tt is e true spirit!(im not sadist) in e short 3 minutes of each match, we shld make all e sweat n tears during trainings be worth it. even if it means sacrificing abit n gg through alot of pain. although i did think tt it was impt to make sure tt ur arm was okay. i could tell how much e upcoming comp in cambodia meant to u. n im sure ur still gg to play in e comp (even w all e objections due to ur injured arm haha) n make sure ur hard work pays off. jiayou renjun! u brave girl :)
its been such a long time (actually only abt a yr haha) since we officially left cj judo team n stopped training. i miss training together as a team. i will nv be able to feel e same adrenaline rush and excitement tt i once felt at my very first kyu grade competition. i remember how i was trying to put up a brave front despite being soo nervous 1 n a half yrs ago at kyu grade. i was pratically shivering as i walked onto e dojo for my first match lar haha. it was e scariest thing tt could happen to me den! (it felt worse than taking an exam). i went home a happy girl. bcoz i proved to myself tt it was not impossible. mths ltr came age grp. i went for e comp unsure of myself, uncertain of how much further i could go. my team's cheering n support did alot for me. it felt good to know tt there was a team behind me, to have a team tt had so much more confidence in me than i had in myself. we trained, laughed n cried together as a team. i din get a chance to say this last yr. although we din get e 1st we wanted, i think we all did ourselves proud. im proud to be part of cj judo. thanks for being part of my life :)